I woke up this morning knowing I have quite a lot to do, and it was a bit stressful when I thought about it all. So I started off the day with a meditation and that calmed and centred me to get started. Now all the "preparation to write" has been done, and I've just been outside for a smoke (yes, I know I should stop, and I will, but today is not the day for that!) and yet again the sun has made my day! Look at how beautiful it is when it just peeps over the rooves of the houses behind mine... <3
I posted them on Facebook, with a comment of "Good Day Sunshine", and when I looked at my wall, the three photos had posted separately, all with the same comment... I was already thinking of this song, so imagine my delight when I went to find a link to post - I hadn't realised that the phrase was repeated 3 times on each chorus - and everyone knows that 3's a magic number ;)
This video was uploaded on the 3rd June 2010, which would have been my 15th wedding anniversary if we'd stayed married - but that wasn't the point of this video. The lyric "then we'd lie beneath the shady tree" reminded me of this poem I wrote about 10 years ago - you'll soon see why! <3
I really didn't know who it was about at the time, but I knew it wasn't for my then boyfriend... I saw every step of this poem, and I can still walk around inside it now. I hope you love it as much as I do <3
The One
I see you lying there in the sun, in the dappled shade of the tree
I wonder how long you have been there, and whether you’re waiting for me
Your eyes are closed, your breaths are deep
I wonder if you are asleep
I try so hard not to make any sound as up to your side I creep
I’ve loved you for such a long time, and I know you have no idea
I can’t reveal my feelings for you, even though to me they are clear
I watch as your chest rises with each intake of the fresh country air
I see the summer breeze ripple, bending the branches and your soft hair
The smell of you enters my senses. I store it away in my brain
So that every time I think of you, I can dream I am near you again
I sit on the grass beside you, pretending you know I'm there
My hand reaches over to stroke your face but I manage to stop in mid air
My heart beats a little bit faster, thinking how close I was to being caught
But the need inside me grows stronger, and I wonder perhaps I ought
To let it reach over and touch you, to wake you from your quiet dream
To tell you the feelings inside me, to see if you run and scream
But you aren’t the one who is frightened, the fear is inside of my heart
I am the one who sees sorrow and pain when I imagine life with us apart
But why should we part when I love you? The answer is easy to see
Because when I whisper those 3 words of love that is always what happens to me
So I sit there some more and in silence, wishing things could be different this time
But knowing they surely cannot be after that long ago, hardly known crime
How can I feel what’s inside me, when I have so much passion and love?
Am I destined to hide from the love that I feel? When will MY angel come from above?
You stir and my heart stops beating, just for a second, but still
I quietly stand and start walking up to the top of the hill
I turn and look over my shoulder, feel the love once again swell inside
But I quash it and carry on walking, wipe away the tear I want to hide
Nobody sees it but I know its there, all that passion and fire and love
But I carry on walking and wonder again… When will my angel come from above?
I wonder how long you have been there, and whether you’re waiting for me
Your eyes are closed, your breaths are deep
I wonder if you are asleep
I try so hard not to make any sound as up to your side I creep
I’ve loved you for such a long time, and I know you have no idea
I can’t reveal my feelings for you, even though to me they are clear
I watch as your chest rises with each intake of the fresh country air
I see the summer breeze ripple, bending the branches and your soft hair
The smell of you enters my senses. I store it away in my brain
So that every time I think of you, I can dream I am near you again
I sit on the grass beside you, pretending you know I'm there
My hand reaches over to stroke your face but I manage to stop in mid air
My heart beats a little bit faster, thinking how close I was to being caught
But the need inside me grows stronger, and I wonder perhaps I ought
To let it reach over and touch you, to wake you from your quiet dream
To tell you the feelings inside me, to see if you run and scream
But you aren’t the one who is frightened, the fear is inside of my heart
I am the one who sees sorrow and pain when I imagine life with us apart
But why should we part when I love you? The answer is easy to see
Because when I whisper those 3 words of love that is always what happens to me
So I sit there some more and in silence, wishing things could be different this time
But knowing they surely cannot be after that long ago, hardly known crime
How can I feel what’s inside me, when I have so much passion and love?
Am I destined to hide from the love that I feel? When will MY angel come from above?
You stir and my heart stops beating, just for a second, but still
I quietly stand and start walking up to the top of the hill
I turn and look over my shoulder, feel the love once again swell inside
But I quash it and carry on walking, wipe away the tear I want to hide
Nobody sees it but I know its there, all that passion and fire and love
But I carry on walking and wonder again… When will my angel come from above?
(and just as I thought I'd finished this blog, I realised that this song was playing on BBC6Music from the very same album as the first Beatles song! Synchronicity again! <3 )
Have a good day, sunshine!!
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